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I was running through crowds and fighting some people in funny hats with a sabre that didn’t feel entirely real in my hand… in my dream tonight.
And my brother (who was fighting with some sort of naginata) decided to get married in the middle of all that. And I was the only one on his side of the family (hiding my sabre behind my back), and the mother of the bride cried when she thanked me for coming.
And then the enemies came, I shouted ‘Battle formation!’ and woke up.
… and I don’t even have a brother.

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When I try to sound serious and say something like “Peal kickle”
Peal kickle. In brutal ways.

And write Suncho instead of Synchro
Suncho mode
Suncho area
Suncho attack

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pms –
it’s when you want to eat a mountain, drop a mountain on someone’s head angrily and hide under some mountain so no one would ever find you all at the same time.

Men are very lucky if they don’t have to experience this ‘I’m very hungry, angry, irritated, depressed, i-hate-myself-and-everything-around-me-except-for-food’ condition you can do nothing about but just wait out… trying hard not to think about anything.

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There are senses… smell, taste, just the feeling of the air around you… that sometimes make you feel like for a fleeting moment you were able to jump through space or/and time, dimension … and that fleeting moment shakes your whole existence for hours to come because you feel like if you can catch that moment and bring it back you might really travel somewhere. Or maybe you did travel somewhere and it was someone else who came back. Or maybe, you were finally about to wake up, but didn’t reach for the surface strongly enough.
Glitch in the matrix.

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that’s a good feeling.
When Scientist prove and say what I was saying all my life.

1) people are not supposed to function in temperature above 25C
2) in summer it is much healthier to live with your air condition on through all at all times. And you are not supposed to turn it off at night.
3) people turn stupid when temperature is above 30C and it is a fact.
4) hot baths and sauna and stuff like that don’t get you relaxed and ‘take your tiredness away’. They just make you more tired and make you sleep.
(Feeling tired and being tired are very different things)

Sweating while you sleep/sit means your body gets just as tired as ti gets sweating when you run and work out.

All those people who try to make you set temperature at 28C minimum because they think it is right or turn off your air conditioning at night can go f*ck themselves to hell. Cuz that’s how people die from heatstroke.

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how interesting it is, to realise
that feeling a book as a physical thing,
being able to feel its weight and touch the paper, and probably most importantly smell it,
is as important part of “reading” as the text itself

I have a habit of pausing to smell the pages, while digesting some words and thoughts, when I read… and if I can have this ritual, reading doesn’t go as well for me.

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Sometimes I think… that for prophylactic reasons, it would be very nice if Internet would just disappear completely for at least one whole day once in a while… for the whole world.

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Sometimes I put away reading and watching my favourite stories ’till the right time comes’ for years,
Or sometimes I’ll stop reading/watching something in the middle, not because I don’t like it, but because I like it a little too much.
These stories that I feel I have some connection with, get a little too deep into me, and whatever I feel emotionally almost hurts me physically.

I was in middle school when I watched The Two Towers for the very first time in the cinema, and almost had some strange kind of panic/heart attack, driving home through the night in my father’s car. It was a dark road through a forest, and my heart was hurting, and my head felt like I left it back in the movie world, right there on the walls of Hornburg, and I couldn’t breathe.
And that’s how I learned that I might be a little too impressionable towards the things I like.
Then there also was a mistake of watching all episodes of old Berserk after all episodes of Ayashi no Ceres in one day/night, after which I couldn’t walk straight for three days.

The point is, I feel bad about it, but I really can’t make myself watch/read some of my most favorite things just because they hurt too much and I think it’s kind of unfair.