2kkeina

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Kawabata Yasunari takes words out of my mouth:
“My head hasn’t been very clear these last few days. I suppose that’s why sunflowers made me think of heads. I wish mine was as clear as they are. I was thinking on the train – if only only there were some way to get your head cleaned and refinished. Just chop it off – well, maybe that would be a little violent. Just detach it and hand it over to some university hospital as if you were handing over a bundle of laundry. ‘Do this up for me, please’ you’d say. And the rest of you would be quietly asleep for three or four days or week while the hospital was busy cleaning your head and getting rid of the garbage. No tossing and no dreaming.”

The Sound of the Mountain

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私は練乳を使ったケーキを焼き

母がキノコのビーフストロガノフを作り

夜にビールと

なぜか第１話から『Friends』を観て

色々と

男女関係についてとか考え

「今すぐ孫を作りなさい」とか言われ

本を読み

窓の外の雨を眺める…

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すごく

美しいモノを見ると

自分が醜く感じる

だが

だからと言って

自分の為に美しいモノと拒む

のではなく

自分の痛みを無視するのが得意ですから

自分が醜い、と感じていても

あの人を愛す

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The best thing about childhood, 

and the thing I miss the most right now,

is that feeling of endlessness of time. 

The feeling of a long long road in front of you,

that you actually feel anxious to walk quicker than you can.

That feeling that you can get a cold (most likely want to get a cold) 

and time would just stop while you could stay lying in your bed for few days,

and nothing would actually change when you got up again. 

Everything moves so fast now I actually feel like I’m being dragged by my hair and can’t get enough a break to stand back up on my feet. 

And I crave for something that will give me that feeling of time staying still again.